Thursday, January 13, 2011
Three Thankful Thoughts
I am thankful for:
1. Support - I am thankful that I have a husband who watches the kids while I run and even comes out to a few races. I am thankful that my children for the most part like to ask about my runs: "How far are you running today?" "Did you win?" "Who are you running with today?" "Are you only running 12 today?"
I am thankful that I have bloggy friends that are not afraid to tell me when I am crazy or insane or who genuinely care about me. Some of you expressed concerns to me privately and I appreciate it. I am thankful that I have running partners in Bob and TriGuy that can give me tough love too. I am thankful that I have a sister that will say with all sincerity: "You've turned into THAT girl... who is never satisfied!"
Sometimes tough love is what really hits home.
2. Physical Strength - My favorite part of my weight loss has to do with feeling strong. I like that I have muscles now. Not just that I can see my muscles, but that I can feel my strength through them. I am not talking about lifting weights because I don't do heavy lifting, but because of the every day things that I do that I couldn't before. Ex: Carrying a clothes basket full of clothes down two flights of stairs instead of praying for a laundry chute. Lifting both of my kids up at the same time, just because. Helping my husband lift a log into the back of our truck (remember, he is still cutting down that tree). Not being fatigued after a 12 miler or a fast 5 miler.
3. Mental Strength - Losing weight and keeping it off is all mental. I think I am more proud of this than anything number loss on the scale. I have come so far. From a lot of: I can'ts and I won'ts to I CAN and I WILL and even I HAVE. I am most thankful for this. I feel so mentally strong that I CAN eat a little bacon and cheeseburger from 5 Guys once a week and be COMPLETELY okay with it.
Getting it right in my head was the hardest part too and as evidenced from my last two blog posts, I still struggle with this. I pray one day, I won't have to struggle with this, that it will become second nature - but until then, I appreciate the support.
I know that I have disappointed some of you. I am more disappointed in me. But there is NO sense in continuing to dwell on my mistakes - probably how I became over weight in the first place.
I am a runner, a MARATHONER and soon to be Triathlete. I will not get to the finish line by whining and complaining but with strength, determination, and support! Those of you who left, maybe you can trust me to come back one day. I cannot promise it is all roses and sunshine, but I can promise you REAL life struggles, accomplishments, disappointments, and a little insanity!
Posted by Jen at 7:35 AM