At first the idea was completely foreign to me. This notion that I was to take time to just do nothing - WHAT? Why on earth would I want to do that? Who has time to just chill? Just be?
In fact, witnessing people do that evokes all sorts of negative thoughts in my head - they must be: lazy, self-absorbed, unhappy, and down right careless people. Who has time to just sit there and be?
It did not always use to be this way. BEFORE I lost weight, I could sit for hours... I was lazy! Usually sitting on the couch just BEING meant having some sort of snack food in my hand chowing down, watching some trash tv like: The Real Housewives of Orange County (Team Gretchen here!!). Sometimes just being was reading a book (now I race through books because it something that needs to be done). Sometimes it was meditating (this has been more negative lately).
But when I lost weight, I also lost the ability to just be. I do have time in the morning with God, but even that is reading a devotional, praying, or focusing on listening.
I have been told more than once that I need to just BE... and I think at this stage of my life, I really do need to just be.
I am over thinking, over analyzing, drowning in my negative thoughts, over training (yesterday I ran 7 miles in the morning and was on my trainer last night for 1 hour and 45 minutes), worrying about what ifs, what could have beens and my life is started to see the affects. My children do not know how to just be either.
HOW DO YOU JUST BE?