Where I left you: I left you at the point of my REST. It was a long tough week but I WAS successful in resting. I did a lot of soul searching that week too. I made some decisions. But most of all I rested by means of exercising. By the end of the week, my house was SPOTLESS. There wasn't a single piece of laundry to be washed, or dried, or hung, or put away. No dust. No dirt... seriously, went behind my kids and cleaned up their messes. I was more than a little insane. I think my husband enjoyed the clean house and inspired meals. My attitude... well, take a week of exercise away from a prior fat girl and you bet there will be attitude, and mood swings.
Decisions made: 70.3 is on hold, speed increase on hold, find the passion again
Where I have been: I took the week off and then I "eased" back into running:
Sunday: Swim clinic, 3 mile run
Monday: 4 miles, 1600 m swim
Tuesday: 5 miles
Wednesday: 4 miles
Thursday: 5 miles, 1700 m swim
Friday: 16.5 mile ride and 3.5 mile run
Saturday: 6 miles
Sunday: 10.25 miles
Monday: 3 miles, 1750 swim
Tuesday: 15 mile ride and 3 mile run am, 3 miles pm
Wednesday: 5 miles am, 4 miles pm
Thursday: 7 miles
Friday: 3 miles (today)
And I have a ride and long run planned this weekend.
Where I have been non-exercise related: I have been lost. I have been weak. I have been down. I have given notice at my current job. I have accepted a position at a new place. I have realized that I am no honey-badger and really, really want to be.
Its like I have been faking orgasms in life - why? Because it is just easier. Easier for everyone to think I am happy, no ones feelings get hurt, the truth to stay bottled up.
And as I have said before... there is nothing like faking it. I am REAL! Honey-badgers are REAL. (BTW: Have you been reading Tonia's series? TDF!!) I want to be real. I want to surrender and be resurrected. I want the Pixie back. I want the "old me" who had the passion back.
A wise friend once said: "its ok to blog about problems, not just 'inspirational' stuff" - well, folks... I'll come back.... but I cannot promise it will be happy and mushy! But it will be REAL!