I have loads of laundry waiting to be washed, some waiting to be put away, a dirty house, and I have neglected children and husband. Dinner has NOT been ready at 5pm as it has for the last 8.5 years of my marriage. In fact, I have not even been cooking it - simply reheating leftovers or worse - leaving it to my husband to scrounge around looking for something to cook for himself as I head out the door.
What has changed? Only one thing… and this one thing is not that big. But it has been making a HUGE impact on my life.
I am what they classify as an over achiever and I love being involved. I maintain my son’s preschool website, my daughter’s school’s PTA website and send out a weekly email newsletter for the PTA every Sunday morning. I am a member of The Bloody Orators Toastmaster’s club; serve on the preschool board, PTA board, a committee about church growth for my church.
I work part time as a Youth Minister. I watch Baby A and her sister from 8am until 9am, and continue to watch Baby A until 12:30, Monday through Thursday.
Now that the Healthy Challenge has started, I have volunteered myself as the Contestant Liaison which means I field questions and concerns between the organizers and the contestants. I also volunteered myself to get some sponsors: Potomac River Running Store (donated $100 vouchers for each contestant to get running shoes & they gave them a free Running 101 training voucher), asked Jeremy’s Run to allow us to use their race as a competition, and started the talks with L’Academie de Cuisine to host the Cooking Challenge. It is my pleasure to be a part of the competition. I WANT to be a part of the competition. It is so much fun to be a part of people changing their lives and REDUCING their weight.
The thing that has changed is the addition of my third part time job. I am so excited to have this job. I think there may be some future in this job, but it has put me over the edge. I usually work it after I watch Baby A. Either I bring Brock, my 5.5 year old son with me (note: he is so well behaved - he actually let me work from 9am to 12:30 one day and all he wanted to do was shred if we needed it) or I leave him with a friend who watches him (he thinks it is a play date) and I work. Our casual Fridays (Brock does not go to preschool on Fridays) of playdates and leisure are now filled with me working in the morning. Eventually, this job will allow me to work form home 95% of the time. Eventually, I will not have 3 jobs.
But right now, I am overwhelmed. I admit it. It is hard to admit this but the laundry piles and filth in my house admit it too. And for the last couple of days, I have been very temperamental and quick to loose my patience. Everyone suffers when this happens.
Is it because I am overwhelmed? Is it because I am volunteering too much of my time away? Honestly, I think it is because I haven't made time to run. My mileage for March was 105 miles (and some of those days we had snow or it was just too cold). I think for April I am only at 85. Yes, I have another week left, but I do not see where I am going to find time this week to run. I am just TOO busy!
Running has become my sanctuary. I talked to God. I listen for God. I enjoy thinking about tasks at hand or just running - not thinking of anything. My heart feels like it is bleeding because I have not been able to run.
I suffered some minor setbacks with my Achilles tendon, but it seems fine now. I feel like I haven't gotten a great run since my 11.8 miles before the cruise. Okay, okay... I did get a PR running a 5k in my neighborhood... but that was just one day. I want to get back out there. I need to get back out there. My family needs me to get back out there.
The positives are:
- My marathon training does not official begin until June as Marine Corps is not until October 31st.
- Eventually, I will not have 3 part time jobs.
- The Healthy Challenge is only 12 weeks and while I am making awesome friends along the way, my self-inflicted committment won't be too much.
- I will not be maintaining my son preschool's website too much longer as this is his last year.
- My PTA commitment will settle as the summer is approaching.
What do you do to get your run in?